Vivian was diagnosed with stage IV pancreatic cancer on January 6th 2012. She immediately started chemotherapy and along with some pain management started feeling better. At the end of March she started having severe abdominal pain. New scans revealed that tumors had spread throughout her liver and pancreas. That's where this blog picks up. Vivian passed away on April 26th, 2012.
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Hard To Be Human
While we are able to illicit some basic body language responses as we talk to her or when she hears certain noises, things are fading for Vivian. She is entering the last stages of her battle with this disease. Our job has been to keep Vivian as comfortable and pain free as possible, but it is becoming increasingly difficult. We are stuck in a position where more medication may keep her more comfortable, but will quickly take more of her away. At the same time, we're not so sure it would be a bad thing if she slipped away sooner than later. It's proving difficult to be humane and human at the same time. Fortunately we have been able to be together as a family and we believe she feels our love and takes comfort in our presence.
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I am sure she feels your love and my heart breaks that you all have to go through this. I was going to call today but since I can't seem to stop the tears from coming since I read this I don't think I would be coherent enough to offer any support.
ReplyDeletePlease let her know we love her.
Nancy
It is an impossible task but through Vivian's strength you will find yours to travel through on this path.
DeleteLots of love,
Katia
Although my heart aches for your entire family, I take great comfort in knowing my dear friend is surrounded by those she loves the most. Sending love and prayers your way toay and always.
ReplyDeleteStacy
My thoughts and prayers are with you as always. My love to you all. Cheryl
ReplyDeleteAs I've read this blog over the weeks I can feel the warmth and love generating from your home. Vivian has such a sense of humor and it's shown in this blog...I love that she gets after Serge. I pray daily for your family, but know that the quailty time that is being spent will go on in your hearts forever. God Bless you all. Sue Nemitz (Lincoln lunchlady)
ReplyDeleteAs a first hand observer, I have been overwhelmed by the way your family has taken care of Vivian. Vivian is a great lady, & she will know when it's time to go. She looks so pretty, she told me at the onset, that she wasn't going to lose her hair, & she meant it.
ReplyDeleteThe stained glass window is beautiful, I'm sure that really pleases her.
What a blessing her life has been to so many of us, & just looking at all the pictures shows that she really "lived!" Robyn
feel our love..... Vivian knows you are with her and that she is surrounded by love, holding her hand, finding ways to touch.... She is part of a remarkable family. Gretchen
ReplyDeleteOur love to you all. We'll keep everyone in our prayers. Let us know if there is anything at all we can do for you. Nikki
ReplyDeleteVivian has always been such an inspiration. She has a beautiful spirit within,filled with grace. She was so loving & caring when I was at the lowest spot in my life. You will know when God is ready to take her in glory and relieve her pain. You are all in our prayers throughout the day,everyday. Love to you all.....Marilyn
ReplyDeleteYou may not always feel it, but you are Courageous. Kevin & Myrtelisa
ReplyDeleteThinking of you all as you try to find strength. I wish my dear friend, Vivian, comfort. You all, as well. To be loved as much as she is, what a beautiful thing.
ReplyDeleteWith love,
Tessa